求一篇中文信的英语翻译

你好！hello

今天上午收到你短信息说你在怀疑我是不是在躲你或者不想见你。其实不是那样的，自从你前年离开中国后，我们就未曾相聚。我也很是期待着你这次来中国，可是事与愿违，时间上起了冲突。ReceiveyourshortmessageindoubtingthatIwhetherbeornotamavoidingtomeetyouornotwantingtomeetyouthismorningcriticizingyou.Faultisinfactlikethat,weneveraregatheringtogetherrightawaysinceyoulefttheChinesequeentheyearbeforelast.IhavebeentobeexpectingthatyoucometoChinathistime,butbeachievingtheoppositeofwhatoneintendedalsoverymuch,havegotconflictontime.

我很想回天津看你的，可是我发觉工作了，有时候就不像以前在学校那样自由了，公司有公司的人事制度，我有时真的感到很无可奈何。还有就是有些事情我觉得没必要瞒你，去一趟天津光路费就得花费不少。现在的我真的承担不起这笔费用，有时候你可能很奇怪，为什么区区的几百块钱我都拿不出来？

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可能这就是你不了解中国的地方，我家原来是在农村的，后来父母去城里打工，前年在城里买了一套商品房，不仅把家里的积蓄全花光了，而且还欠着银行一大笔贷款，每月都必须拿出我们家很大一笔收入来还贷。还贷后剩下的钱几乎只够全家人的生活费用了。真的感觉很无可奈何，我们家现在可能就是所谓的“房奴”吧。

PossibilitywillbethatyoudonotknowabouttheChineseplaceimmediately,myfamilyhadbeeninruralareainthefirstplace,parentshadgonetoworkinsidethecityafterwards,inthecityhadboughtasetofcommercialresidencialbuildingtheyearbeforelast,notonlyhomesavingsissatisfiedhavingwipedout,andbelackinginbankonepenloan,cometolendtomusttakeoutourverybigfamilysumofinvisibleincomeeverymonth.Themoneythattheloanqueenisleftoverwithnearlyhasreachedcostoflivingofpeopleofwholefamily.Truefeelingisattheendofone'sresourcesverymuch,ourfamilymaybeaso-calledhouseslavenow.

再加上这个月的月初，我爷爷和外公也从老家来看我们，家里支出了一笔不小的费用。所以现在真的有点困难。真的希望能得到你的谅解，不是我不愿意去天津与你们团聚，我也很想你们！

对不起自从毕业后，我英语就越来越差了，所以不是我不接你电话，是因为接电话了很多我也听不懂，所以叫你发信息给我，因为那样我还可以找别人翻译。

最后希望你一切都顺利。

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这样就可以了。